Brother of the past or foe of the Future

[Breezy~Chan]

*Ashflower*

A young, well not too young of a warrior was walking towards the lake side to cool off after hunting for the clan. He sea foam green eyes looked at the water of the lake and thought back to when her brother disappeared. But also thought about when she frist met Ashcloud. The two look just to much a like for it to be a mistake of who he is. He had to be Ash, She had so many questions that have gone unanswered for to long. It was starting to drive her nuts and for the sake of her kits, she left them with another queen for the day. Ashflower sighed as her mind was running away with all the thoughts in her head. She could still see the look in Ashpaw's eyes as he fell over the cliff. He was wounded she could tell and guessed that he didn't want her to see him suffer from them. Maybe even see him die after losing their father. But she was put through more pain because of him disappearing over that cliff. Ashflower wanted to die so many times because of the lose of her family. But than she became pregnant with their kits and couldn't even think of dieing at that time. They were both so happy, hoping their kits would be healty. Ashflower looked at the sky with a tear falling from her muzzle "I hope to see you again, some day mylove" she said to a star that was shining brightly even though it was day time.

[★ Siri]

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[atrb=background,http://img832.imageshack.us/img832/1392/middleash.png] An ashen grey cat slipped from his den. He briefly stretched, claws extended, and padded out of camp. He would return shortly to fulfill his duties, but for now, he had a strange urge to visit the lake. This was not uncommon-- He had grown to love the lake in his stay at Riverclan. He honestly couldn't understand why other clans despised it so. Lazily sauntering across the camp, he nodded at the few clanmates that were hanging around. As he was walking, he was concentrating hard on his apprentice. He needed to take him out more often than he did already. The ceremony for apprentices to become warriors was approaching rapidly, and they were going to be caught unaware. He had serious doubts that his apprentice was going to make it to warrior status, but at least if he trained hard, no one would be able to blame the mentor on Shockpaw's obvious lack of skills and common sense. His mind suddenly switching, he thought back to the strange she-cat that had confronted him a while back. Tail tip twitching in agitation, Ashcloud still wasn't sure about what to make of her. She kept claiming to be his sibling, and was obviously delusional. He had been born to Riverclan parents, and the rest of his family had died in a flood.

[Breezy~Chan]

*Ashflower*

The young queen looked at herself in the water of the lake and saw pain in her pale green eyes. It was always like normal when she was alone. Ashflower never took another mate after pinefur's death and bear the thought of doing so. She thought it would dishonor him in death. Her life was boring at times with helping with the Clan, but she love to help with the other kits at times. Ashflower would most of the time come to the lake to think on her life and came to relize that her whole life has been one big ball of pain and sadness. Her mother had always loved her the most for some reason. Her mother named both her kits after friends Angelfur had lost in battle. Ashflower looked at woods to see if anyone had come to find her or see if she was ok. Her ear's flatened to her head and saw no one had come. She remembered that it was always Ashpaw or Pinefur who came after her if she was upset about anything. She could recall one of those times he came to comfort her.

A memory flashed before her eyes and she saw Ashpaw her brother looking at her "Ashie are you ok, what has you upset" he asked with a look of worry. A younger Ashflower looked at her brother "it's nothing Ash" she said as some tears fell down her muzzle. The bigger tom came and sat beside her "you wouldn't be crying if it was nothing" Ash said as he rubbed his muzzle to her ear. Ashie leaned in to her brother's strong body "it's that new apprentice's Bloompaw, Bloompaw thinks she knew everything about being pretty and.......and said I was ugly and no tom would want to mate with me for love, but only for pity" she said with more tears falling down. Ash looked at his sister "don't listen to her, sis and don't cry over it. Your the prettyist she cat I have seen yet" he said with a calm tone. Ashie rubbed her tears away "Really, brother, you really think I'm pretty" she said starting to feel a little better "Yeah really" he said with a chuckle as the memory started to fade away. Tear's were falling down Ashflower's muzzle and quickly started to rub the away as she relized it.

[★ Siri]

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[atrb=background,http://img832.imageshack.us/img832/1392/middleash.png] He had silently been watching the she-cat for the past few minutes. She was quite strange. When they first met, she had been convinced that they were related. Complete rubbish, of course. He pitied her, he could see that she was alone. He briefly wondered how she would react to his appearance, and carefully stepped out of the foliage that was covering him. Hesitantly, he hovered in the distance. He almost didn't want to disturb her, he could see that she was remembering something, and her expression almost matched his when something brought the headaches back. Padding forwards, he silently sat at her side, and said nothing, looking on at the water, waiting for her to speak first.

[Breezy~Chan]

*Ashflower*

Foam green eyes kept looking at the water with a few tears of pain. Ashflower's mind was so on her brother that she didn't realized until she saw his image in the water that Ashcloud was there. She jerked her head up and looked at him with wide eyes "Oh good evening Ashcloud" she said calmly. Ashflower looked back at the water as to keep from mistaking the young warrior for her brother again. But some times it was hard to not watch him when pasting a border. This was her frist day without her kits. They were getting so big and almost ready for to be apprentice's. Ashflower was starting to feel so alone without Pinefur with her to happy her through the fect that he only baby were going to grow up. She sighed "Have you ever been hurt broken Ashcloud" she asked the question without really thinking. But she wanted to know about him and she started it off with a sad question that had to deal with the lose of her own mate.

The pain of losing Pinefur had be too heart breaking to ever forget. He had protected her and their unborn kits at the time. But she blames herself for his death. If only she had stayed at camp that day and the fox wouldn't have found her or connered her. He wouldn't had to have protect her. He wouldn't have lost his life because of her being a fool and not staying where she belonged until the kits were old enough to not need her. She'd still have a mate and the kits would have a father to look up too. She some times missed her own father too. Ashflower needed some time alone at times and some times she just needed someone to be there "I shouldn't be asking you that, should I" she said in a calm tone. Ashflower dipped a paw in the lake water and licked her paw to get a taste of the water.

[★ Siri]

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[atrb=background,http://img832.imageshack.us/img832/1392/middleash.png] Dipping his head silently when she greeted him, his gaze never left the surface of the water. His eyes narrowed in pleasure as the soft wind caressed his face gently. He always did like the wind. He often thought that it would be just as fitting for him to be born in Windclan. He wasn't all that pleased with wide open spaces, though. Glancing at her sharply, his amber eyes glittered coldly when he caught her question. He was silent for a moment, and didn't know how to reply. He almost didn't want to tell her about his life, but then again, a part of his mind urged him to open up to the queer she-cat. He could see that she had been thinking about death. Her stature was wilted, and she had a dejected aura about her. If anything, Ashcloud's secret talent was to guess what people were thinking about. He couldn't always pinpoint it, but he had learned to read body language in such a way, that he could, for the most part, guess the topic. In such dismal cases, he hesitantly referred to it, in case he was either wrong or right, and didn't want to uncover further bad memories. His ear flicked in amusement when she tried to take back her question. He was silent for a moment more, and then quietly replied, "Yes. My mate decided that I was not good enough for her and our kits, and she chose another tom in front of me." His gaze slid to the calm water, and his vision faded, only to be replaced by a gentle glow of the nursery. He could hear the muted voices of kits squeaking in protest as their mothers shifted their teats away from greedy, gaping mouths. The quiet shuffle of kits arranging themselves around their siblings, and the mother's settling in for naps. The monotone voices of queens telling stories that they learned from their own parents. The overwhelming scent of feathers and milk mixed. He could see himself stepping into the nursery, his eyes trying to adjust to the darkness of the queens den. His eyes lit on a pair of cats, his own mate, and a fellow tom that he knew was interested in her. He saw them, together. On top of each other. His kits were asleep in the nest, safe. He watched himself spin around, furious and dejected. He heard his mate gasp in embarrassment, as she watched her mate flee. Her, the one who had caused him so much pain, had tried to chase after him, but she couldn't find him. He had left. Wide eyes stared at the lake, as this small, life changing piece of his past unfolded itself in the clear depths of the water. He did not cry, he could not anymore. He had taught himself that emotion would only hinder a good warrior. Subconsciously, his tail had arranged itself protectively around his paws, and his defenses had gone up. He became furious at himself and his past mate once again, as claws unsheathed themselves and tore at the grass and rocks under his feet. His claw catching on his tail, he watched the blood well up from the cut, a detached expression on his face. He felt no pain, and for this, he was glad.

[Breezy~Chan]

*Ashflower*

The young queen listened to his story of pain and it seem to somewhat help with her own. But the only thing is; that he left his mate for cheating on him. Ashflower looked at the water and saw an image of Pinefur "Oh Pinefur, I wish you were here to see your kits" she whispered with a few tears. Ashflower again dipped her paw in the water "I'm sorry to hear that about your ex-mate Ashcloud" she said calmly as she licked her paw of the water. Putting her paw back down again; she looked at the water and could still see her dead mates face "I lost my mate to a fox" she said calmly. The image's of his death hunting her for this many moons "I was pregnant at the time with Pinekit and Angelkit. I wanted to go sun bathing like I always did on a hot day near a stream" she sai as that day flashed before her eyes. Ashflower saw herself sun bathing again and as she continued to tell the story. She saw everyone; She was laying on a flate rock when she heard something. But didn't think nothing of it when she didn't catch a scent on the wind. As she laid back down though; it happen again and this time the fox came out growling at her. Ashflower leapped up in fear. She ran and ran for her life; for the lifes of her unborn kits. But Ashflower was getting tired and she made a wrong turn.

She was connered and was faced with the fox sharp teeth. Ashflower thught she was done for; when Pinefur jumped out of no where and was attacking the fox alone. Ashflower was to shocked to do anything to help him; the fight lasted for about ten minutes before the fox managed to pin him to a cliff side wall. Ashflower screamed "PLEASE, NOOOOOO" but her cries weren't answered. Pinefur cried out "RAN ASHFLOWER" before the fox ripped out his throat. Blood splashed across Ashflower's muzzle. She looked at his body in shock as it fell to the ground. While the fox had it's mind more on Pinefur's body and didn't even look at her. Ashflower did as he had screamed before his death. The images started to fadded as she got to the part where a patrol found her in shock and almost out of her mind with griff. Ashflower looked at the water looking for tears that might have fallen.

But none did and she looked up at Ashcloud with pain in her sea faom green eyes "I almost give up living that day; but then after my kits were born, I had something to live for again. But I blame ThunderClan and StarClan in some way for his death" she said with sadness dripping form her voice. He whole life has been filled with pain "I frist lost my parents and then my brother and now the last thing I had was pinefur my mate. And like Darkstarclan I'll let anyone take my kits, they are all I have left in ThunderClan" she said with slight anger. Ashflower then came back to herself and remembered who she was talking to "I'm sorry for what I just said; I've been under stress lately" she said as to hide her true feelings about Thunderclan.